Sunday, January 19, 2014
Gutter Brain and My Two Worlds
As some of you may know, I have a day job...meaning, I don't write full-time. My day job is one that requires I keep my writing life somewhat secret. Especially the erotic component of my writing life. Now, for a while this was an easy balance to maintain. At the beginning, I spent way more time on my day job and less on my writing job which meant that I could separate the two worlds with a neat little boundary marker. On one side was the proper, professional, quiet (shocking, I know) Angela and on the other side was the raunchy, gutter brain, who swears a lot Angela. I've noticed, however, that lately I've had a harder time keeping those two worlds separate.
For example, the other day I was in the lunch room eating and a male colleague came in, caught sight of my friend and announced: Hey Steph (not her real name), you're on my to do list! Right away my mind went straight into the gutter and I snickered...which lead to the male colleague then tsking me and saying, "Now, Angela, you have a dirty mind. I'm going to have to keep my eyes on you." O_O Which made me giggle....and then he said, "You're making me get all hot." I'm sure he meant embarrassed but holy crap...that was the end of any control...I started laughing...as did my friend (who also has gutter brain) and the poor man slinked out of the room and has not made eye contact with me since.
My writing world is becoming a more prominent feature in my life and in my thoughts. I'm not entirely sure my day job world is going to be able to handle any more slips like that. But how do I suppress the persona when the persona is really me?
I guess we all have closets of various shapes, sizes, and depths. I wonder what will slip out of mine next?